So life has been pretty weird/depressing lately. And I’m almost certain that December is so far the worst month of 2013 for me (considering that I have the memory of a mentally challanged goldfish and can’t even remember what I did three weekends ago).
Anyway, I guess I’ll do this in a random order since they equally suck.
1. Daddy Issues - Since I’ve been back at home, the relationship I have with my father has been moving in a downward spiral. It seems that nothing I do can make him happy. I think that the main reason for this is because my sister got him believing that all I care about and spend my money on is drugs. I mean yeah, I like weed and rolling, but it isn’t like I’m stealing jewelry from my mom and grandma to buy it the way that she would when she needed ice. It isn’t like I spent 6 months living in my car. And I don’t have three kids from three different guys. I use money that I earned myself to do it occasionally with my best friends. And I don’t NEED it. I just choose to do it because it’s fun and I know I’ll get over it eventually. I wish he could understand at least that much, but she’s burned it into his mind that it’s what my life revolves around, and that’s how it’s going to stay. Kinda depressing, but apparently there’s nothing I can do about it. It doesn’t help that he’s an ex-chronic himself, so I guess it’s natural for him to assume that I do everything that he used to…I just wish that that wasn’t the case. I mean I know that he still loves me, but I hate that he thinks so lowly of me now.
2. Weight Issues - God. This issue was the reason I decided to blog tonight in the first place. Over the passed two and a half years, I managed to gain 35 pounds. I don’t know what exactly it is that I’m doing wrong. I mean, I very rarely drink soda. I cut out rice. I even tried going to the gym for a month, and even then I gained a few pounds. I checked my weight a little earlier tonight, and didn’t want to believe it. This is literally the heaviest I’ve ever been. People tell me that I look the same, but I can’t help but feel like they’re only trying to be nice. I mean of anything, I WANT them to tell me that they see it, too. Maybe that’s the motivation I need. I miss wearing shorts and crop tops. I miss my collarbones and jawline, and overall feeling more confident. Yesterday I picked up these cheap diet pills and told myself that I’m going to try again. Seeing results will be relieving, but in the time being, I’m very unhappy. I know how they say a bad attitude won’t help anything, but I can’t help it.
3. Bi-Curious - Usually the whole “coming out” thing is supposed to lift a weight off of your chest, but I feel the same. If not, maybe even a little worse. This passed weekend, I told my best friends that I want to experience what it’s like to be with a girl. I’ve never actually felt sexually attracted to any of my girl friends, or to anyone in particular at all, but this is something I feel that I need to try at least once. This feeling only came to me recently. I mean, it’s something that I can’t block out of my mind. I talked about it with a friend, and she told me that she was bi-curious, too, but after her experience, she got over it really fast. I’m not sure if this is how I’ll react, but I guess when it happens I’ll know. And as a side note: Kevin and I are still happily together. And yes, I let him know about how I feel shortly after I told my friends. At first, he said he was okay with it. But after a while, he started to get angry and question whether or not he was good enough for me. So for him, I’m trying to shake the feeling, and I’m not going to cheat on him. I wish he’d understand, though.
4. Favoritism Issues - I love my job, but I don’t like my boss. The way she treats me is so unfair. I’m sorry that I’m not Hawaiian enough or I don’t buy you food or whatever the fuck it is that you don’t like about me. I just wish you didn’t pick on me and that you weren’t so hypocritical. I feel like I’ve been improving a lot lately, but you’ve only been putting me down. You get mad about my boobs popping out of my shirt. For one, I can’t help that my boobs are so big. And two, at least they look good, unlike one of your favourite girls who wear shorts that are WAY too short. Her legs are obviously too big for her shorts and I don’t see you complaining about that. I also remember you saying that we aren’t allowed to just sit with our co-workers and talk story. Literally LAST week, you were doing that exact thing! I was the only one actually doing my job, earning my 7.75 an hour, while everyone else was enjoying story time with you, laughing and having the time of your god damn lives. You also said that we aren’t allowed to eat during work, and to be on time. You walk into work LATE at least three times a week with your L&L or McDonalds or whatever. Way to kill two birds with one stone, huh? And your favourite employees either call-in to work for “personal” reasons, or just plain stupid ones, and you’re okay with that. I’m tired of dealing with your favouritism and always being put down. Basically, I just need a new job, and fast.
But yeah. Here are some runner-ups:
-We Came as Romans canceled for Metalfest. I have been looking forward to this show since like July, so it kinda really sucks.
-I still don’t have a license.
-My life savings = $0
-I can’t go back to college until I pay off my debt.
you dont have to agree with his policies but you have to admit hes the coolest president we’ve had ever
A friend snapped this picture of us nearly ten years ago, when we were just a couple of kids. We were only friends, but I had a secret crush on him and he had a secret crush on me. When he finally kissed me later that year, I told him “I wish I could keep you” and he said, “I wish you would.” And I did. We came back to this spot on the eve of our seventh wedding anniversary.
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8-inch chocolate penis that oozes fondant cream… Fresh mint fondant, Valencia orange fondant, Williams Pear liqueur fondant, Mozart chocolate liqueur fondant, Cointreau liqueur fondant and Irish coffee liqueur fondant.
Okay but is it possible to get the filling colored red? Because obviously the best use for these is to make a gif or video where you’re licking and sucking at one seductively, making bedroom eyes at the camera, and then you BITE THAT MOTHERFUCKER IN HALF AND SHRIEK YOUR VICTORY AS THE DELICIOUS BLOOD-FILLING DRIPS FROM YOUR VICIOUS MAW.
This site scares me so much.
Reblogging because that damn comment
perfect way to start my morning :D